myoldlady

My heart all torn and mangled
i shouldnt listen to my head
i feel as though im falling
after all that has been said.

I look to him for comfort
but its my fault im turned away
why cant i just see through the problems
Sorry is all i can say.

I guess you'll never trust me
and who can blame you
i guess its time you face it
my heart belongs to you.

One day ill hope, ill understand
whats going on inside
and we'll live happy together
me and you by each others side.

You can take away my self belief
you can take away pride
you can take away my confidence
But he's still by my side.

you can make me feel it's all my fault
an make me feel so bad
But do that "friend" i dare you
and you will not be glad.

Think you can get your own way
by moaning andcomplaning and such
but look whats happned now
was it really worth that much?

friendship is a funny thing
strange though how it ends
let this be a lesson to you
the message your behaviour sends.

when i eventually close my eyes
i barely feel like i'm asleep,
like i'm constantly living a dream
knowing i'll wake up with you by my side.

safe an content lying in your arms
my world of problems float out the window
to join the pretty stars
floating in the night time sky.

woken by the sun in my eyes
glance across to see you sleeping
watching you gently breathe,
as if there wasnt a care in the world.

safe an content lying in your arms
my world of problems float out the window
to join the waking sun
floating in the morning sky.

Time to get up an be ready
what ever this day throws at me
i will be ready to face it all
thanks to you.

when it all starts
both partys in pain
all the obsticles overcome
all in vein.

shouting an screaming
echoing pain
silent bad feelings
driving you insane.

the calm after the storm
it all breaks down
you say your sorry
never wana be alone.

Why?
Why do i care?
what they think
of me

Everyday the same old story
Try to be someone i'm not
who is this?

Who is this person?
The one they like?
Do they know me?
the person that hides inside?

Why?
Why do i care?
what they think
of me

Every week the same old routine
Day in day out
Who am i
why am i here

Do they even know i exsist
do they know why
do i know why
Will i ever know

Why?
Why do i care?
what they think
of me
Every month is a spyral
The same old thing around and around

i seem to run in circles
i seem to run in circles

My faithful eyes, stare at you
My faithless life, waits
My faithless Arms, reach out for you
My faithless body aches.

Look into my eyes, do you see what i do?
Walk into my Life, can you be who i am?
Fall into my Arms, can you feel how i do?
Touching my body, do you know how i am?

My Tired eyes, Cry for you
My tired life, calls
My tired Arms wait for you
My tired body falls.

Look into my eyes, do you see what i do?
Walk into my Life, can you be who i am?
Fall into my Arms, can you feel how i do?
Touching my body, do you know how i am?
My lifeless eyes, blink for you.
My lifeless life, dies
My lifless arms, fall for you.
My lifeless body crys.

Rely on me for your comfort and protection,
make up excuses to handle your regection.

Can't do this and can't do that,
an excuse made to make me feel like a twat.

Emotional blackmail some may say,
perhaps i just dont want to see it that way.

one day I'll Grow you'll see
I can explain how my feelings do play.

To my Little Mog’s
I’ll think about you each day
In my heart forever
Though so quickly you where taken away.

My bed will feel so empty
My life so lonely too
But I promise to look after your brother
And remind him always of you.

I will remember all the good times
And think of you each day
I will never forget you
My little Mogsey.

I Blame myself

in my mind every day
feeling that i should have done
If only i'd stopped to say.

In my thoughts all the time
feeling that i should have done
If only that life had been mine.

In my nightmares every night
feeling that i should haave done
why did i not get it right?

In my Life though gone forever,
Feeling that i should have done

I miss you Jason.

My make Up Tears
Drop from my face
I hate my life
I hate this place.

My make up tears
drop on my bed
my life I hope
is not mislead.

My make up tears
drop from my pen
my words they tell
I'm happy... when?

my make up tears
my mascara tears
my eye liner tears
My life time of fears.